Wednesday, October 20, 2010

R.etired E.xtremely D.angerous

I was itching to go away. I want to keep my mind off of things I should not be thinking when it does not bother thinking about me at all. I was splitting my mind on going or staying at home. Just waiting for me to get sleepy until it is time to wake up and get ready for work. But I made up my mind, with meager money in my light-weight wallet., I decided to go.

I left early and found myself in Glorietta. At home I know I want to watch a movie and my plan B would be having a food trip. I was really having a big appetite these passed few days anyway. But then again I am a movie buff so I ended up on the line at the ticket booth. I honestly don't have a movie in mind that I would like to watch. So I looked at the screen for the movie line up and see the schedules. I chose the one that will just give me enough time not to be late at work. I choose the shortest title on the line up: RED.

I already got to watched the trailer of this movie. It circles about spies and CIAs and these topics had their magnets on me. Aside from the junk food I had I can't resist on munching cheeseburgers and fries on a movie like this. I think I'm loving Glorietta cinemas but Shang Cineplex is still my number one.

The movie started with Frank Moses (Bruce Willis) living a boring life as a retired man whose only social life is talking to Sarah (Mary Louise Parker) on the phone about his monthly pension. He tore those checks
being sent on the mail just to
have the reason to take to his lady love on the phone. (Aww, isn't that sweet?). So the action starts as one night armed men literally bombarded bullets that brought his house down. But a RED like him escape without bruises. He came in search of his lady love so he can protect her for he knows he will go after her. Then as they search for answers why would someone want them dead the old gang got together again. Moses came in first with his old pal Joe Matheson (Morgan Freeman) whose already 80-years old has stage 4 liver cancer and whose leisure in life is looking at those tight asses of her nurses at the nursing home. Then there was Marvin Boggs (John Malkovich) a paranoid but someone you can count on. ( Love his line, "Old man my ass!"). And there was the ravishing Victoria (Helen Mirren) who tends her rose gar
den in her posh villa while killing people on the side just for the thrill. "You cannot just turn off the switch and flip over" she says about totally living a normal life and forgetting her life as a spy.

And so they brought the band back together. So follows the high-packed action scenes and explosive extravagance here and there. I just so love Helen Mirren's character on this movie. The guys were even scared to visit her for they fear that she would just shoot them. And admit it guys, don't you just find it sexy when a woman shoots high-powered guns with poise and calmness. No one does this scene so perfect like Helen Mirren did. (And so as Jennifer Garner, Angelina Jolie, and the list goes on..) And by the way she says, "I kill people, dear" like it is just a normal day to day activity..=)

Sunday, October 10, 2010


I am smart. My friends never fail to tell me that I am. I know I am. But that smartness was lost when love comes my way. There is always wrong when I fall in love, I tend to lose my way in the process. Well, not to mention the pain and tears that comes with it. As love comes along, my brain was suddenly moved at my feet. I was stepping hard on it. In a snap I become stupid. I don’t know why.

When it comes to giving good, hard advice on being stupid in love, I was number one (I guess) among my friends. I was the one who give them the hurtful truth on the stupidity they are doing for the sake of love. Again, you know what they say; you cannot really put that advice to work to someone else unless you yourself put it to a test. So now I fell in love and become a total moron.

I just gave my all, to the point I have nothing left for myself. Even pride. I was told that I should save my whole salary so I can buy some pride for myself. It is really hard to muster some pride for myself. Maybe I was really nice or I am just scared of losing someone because of pride. Or, I am just really stupid.

I realized you only become stupid and lose your pride when you never really love yourself. That after all this time, all the while I thought I really loved myself and I have so much love to give that I was just sharing it to the people that matter in my life. But it is not. I think I have the notion that I needed to love somebody in order for me to love myself (EAT.PRAY.LOVE). I don’t know really. Sometimes I have this thought I am never really worthy of love so I just give out love to people that I met along the way in my life. If I cannot love myself I just have to give it out.

The truth of it all, LOVE made me stupid and will always make me stupid. Love is playing its game on me. Maybe Cupid loves the way I spread out love. Without even thinking of the reason of anything but just going for it no matter how idiotic it will be.

Anyways, my brain still functions when I do something for love. It is screaming at me when it knows I am going to do something stupid. Still, in the end my heart won the battle. Even if it hurts. Even if it is so weak to go on. My heart fights for its life. It’s the only reason it beats for life. Gradually, it may get tired and the stupidity will end. The end will mean my death, I suppose.

(I think they will declare me brain dead.)